How Broken Do I Really Want To Be?

It's been a thought all week. Partly because of this song, but mostly just cuz I think too much sometimes. {Not that that's a bad thing.}

The thought first occurred to me this week at the worst possible time. 

It was my brother's birthday this week. So, we took our once-a-year trip to his favourite restaurant... Quite the shmancy place. 

And just as I'm digging in, this question poses in my mind: How broken do I really want to be? 

And sitting there in that restaurant, eating some pretty yummy food... I really didn't want to be that broken. Honestly, "empty my hands" was not really my prayer at that moment.

It's now overflowed into everything in my life... This question. Do I really want Him to empty my hands, fill my heart, capture my mind?

I might want the last two, but if that comes at the cost of emptying, breaking... How broken do I really want to be? 

But broken is beautiful. So shouldn't the question be: How beautiful do I want to be? 

"Give away your life; you'll find life given back, but not merely given back - given back with a bonus and blessing. Giving, not getting, is the way. Generosity begets generosity." {Luke 6:38 The Message}

This doesn't mean if you give away your Mazda, God will send you a brand new Porsche. Here's the deal: The brokenness is the bonus and blessing. 

And you'll find, the more you break, how much bigger your life feels. When you break, you realize how small you are and how big God is.

Breaking is humbling, breaking is hurting - yes. But breaking is freeing. Breaking means having faith that He'll fix you.

It's beautiful.

But breaking means nothing left. Breaking means poor, meek, persecuted, mourning, hungry and thirsty.

And doesn't that leave us with the question -

How broken do I really want to be?

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This month is blog month at Compassion International.

Basically, a whole lotta us bloggers are spending a month convincing you that broken is beautiful. {Not that we don't do that all the time. ;)}

Can I encourage you to break just a little today? It doesn't have to be a lot, don't worry... Just whatever you're comfortable with.

You can stop on by this page on the Compassion website.

The rest is up to you... How broken do you want to be?

Choose a child to pray over. Pray that they find a sponsor, pray that they grow up to be a man or woman after God's own heart.

And if you feel like breaking a little more, call over your family. Huddle around the computer and find a child with the same birthday, birth year, name, or country of origin as you and/or your family members. Talk about God's heart for the poor.

And if you feel like breaking more still, sponsor a child. You really, really will never regret this decision.

Yes - breaking will hurt, but it's a promise, he will make you whole again, more whole than you've ever felt before.

So please, visit just one boy or girl looking for a sponsor, and the rest is up to you -

how broken do you want to be?