I think back to a few years ago, when I sat at this same desk, with the same letter outline in front of me. But that time, it wasn’t addressed to Happyness in Tanzania, it was addressed to Annu in India.
I sit there, and realize how much I’ve changed in these few years.
To Annu, I wrote excitedly, listing my favourite things, etc, not really thinking too much, just LOVING the idea of changing her world. [And that we did, for a wonderful year or so with her.]
Today it is similar. I write excitedly, thinking and praying about all the possibilities this new relationship holds. I fill in my sponsor and child numbers, my age and occupation, my family. My favourite colour and animal. But then I get to “favourite food” and I stop.
Two years ago, I wouldn’t have stopped. I didn’t stop. But today I do.
I think and my mind begins to wander.
I eat everyday. I guess my favourite food might be pizza, or shepherd's pie. Does Happyness eat everyday? If I asked her what her favourite food was, would she have one, or would ANY meal at all be a blessing in itself? Was there time for favourites in her world, or in her mere 5 years has she had to learn that she should take whatever is given to her?
My mind wanders more.
I think about myself at five. Not a care in the world. The biggest problem in my life then was trying to pronounce “hospital” correctly. At 5, I thought about Barbies and kindergarten “drama”, playgrounds and play dates, and what colour crayon to use. I did not think about my next meal, or about running errands or helping in the kitchen. Happyness’ child pack tells me she does think about these things. At 5, I lived [and still do!] with both my wonderful, loving parents. Happyness’ child pack tells me her parents are gone, and she lives with her grandmother.
I think about the leaves of salad I tossed in the trash at lunch, because there just wasn’t enough dressing on them. I’m pretty sure Happyness and her grandmother would’ve eaten it. And I’m pretty sure I should’ve eaten it.
My mind wanders beyond this one child, and I catch myself turning individuals into numbers again. Millions of children dying of preventable diseases. Millions starving and malnourished. Millions uneducated... Millions, millions, millions.
“Millions” is a lot.
I come back to the letter in front of me.
And the letter’s existence gives me hope, because it’s so much more than just a letter. It’s a symbol of a connection between me and Happyness... A connection between the first world and third world. It’s a symbol that poverty is on it’s way out... We’ve shown poverty the door, and now we’re well on our way to giving it the final boot. Poverty CAN be ended in our lifetime.
But you know, that can seem overwhelming, this “ending poverty” business.
“I can’t change the world.” You say.
And you’re partly right. You can’t.
But Jesus can, and [this is where you come in] He’ll use you.
Katie Davis says it best:
"...I have learned that I will not change the world.
Jesus will do that.
I can, however, change the world for one person”
So, so true.
So, that letter. It represents the power of one. One sponsor, one child, one letter, one relationship.
Sure, individually I may not be able to change the world in one breath, because Jesus will do that. But I can change SOMEONE’S world. And eventually, after a couple someones, then a few someones, then as many someones as possible, He WILL change the world through me. And you. I believe that with all my heart.
But today, I start by changing the world of one.
And today, that ONE is Happyness.
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