Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Refugee Girl


I've wanted to say something about Syria, but I'm just not sure what one says to such horror.

But I thought this piece I wrote up this week would be a bit more appropriate than angry, political tweets. 'Cause those rarely turn out well.

Just thinking of the one million Syrian children in refugee camps today, and how no amount of politics will ever give them back their childhood.

refugee girl 
mama says we’re almost there.
but where is there?
she says that everyday.
i think she thinks i believe her.
we left our home a million days ago.
from the amount we’ve walked i feel as though we should’ve circled the earth by now -
and simply arrived back home.

but i know we haven’t been all around the world.
because we haven’t seen the eiffel tower yet.
or the great wall of china,
nor the american white house.
papa used to tell me about those things.
he used to say that one day he’d take me there,
and i’d always fall asleep dreaming about a trip to france with my papa.
that was before he went to fight.

dear soldiers, why do you fight?
why do you kill each other,
hurt each other,
hate each other?
maybe if you stopped, i could go home.

i’ll tell you a secret -
i don’t really want to go to that camp my mama talks about.
i want to go home.
but i tell her it’s ok, whatever she wants.
i don’t tell her how hungry i am, either.
because i don’t want her to be sad.
she looks sad.
she looks scared.

maybe she’s scared that i’ll die, like my friend mary.
mary and her mama were walking with us before.
but then mary got very sick, a few days ago.
she died, and that’s when mary’s mama stopped walking with us.
the night before she left, i heard my mama trying to tell her to stay.
she thought i was asleep, but i wasn’t.
i heard her talk about scary things.
she said words like torture and massacre.
but mary’s mama still left.

sometimes, at night, i wonder where my papa is.
i block out the sounds of the fighting and i try to remember his face.
i hope he’s not in trouble.
i used to ask my mama about him,
but she got very upset.
so i stopped asking.

before he left, he told me he was going fight, and it was a good thing.
a good thing for this country, he said.
good?
i know - maybe he’s gone to stop the fighting.
then we can go to france.

Say a prayer today for a child living in a refugee camp, and offer some thanks for the safety and security we all too often take for granted.

Friday, August 23, 2013

Road Trippin'

Super thankful for vacation and travel time these past few days - with my parents and my brother, showing them Wilmington and visiting Corning, NY and Niagara Falls on the way home, and a few days spent with my mom's whole side of the family sprinkled in between, visiting Lancaster, PA.

[Fourteen of us trekking around Lancaster, PA. Was is crazy? Yes. Was it loud? Yes. But I wouldn't have traded it for anything. :)]

As we gear up around here for the return to routine and back to school (already?!), here are some photos from our trip.

Day 1: Beautiful Sunset on our drive down.

Day 2: Visiting the church that I stayed at during both my Compassion trips to Wilmington, DE!

And Brandywine Park across the street. :)

Visiting the UrbanPromise Wilmington office. They're on break - not much staff and no kids, but we still met some staff and I got to show my family around, which was so awesome. :)

Presto - our fave coffee shop and everyday hang out down there. 

Pointing out the community where some of the UrbanPromise Camp Victory (my camp!) kids live on a map in the restaurant we stopped at for lunch.

Family shot in the window. :)

Planking on some bike racks. :P

Checking out the DuPont Environmental Education Center in Wilmington. It was so awesome to have the chance be a tourist in this city. There's way more stuff than what I was able to see or even hear about in my two weeks there - obviously a different focus last time I was there.


Day 3: Driving along the Brandywine River. 

Checking out the Hagley Museum in Wilmington - all about the DuPont company's start in that city.

Trying to write with quill pens at the schoolhouse. My leftie mama learned why they forced kids to write with their right hand - almost impossible to use a quill pen with your left!

In front of the DuPont house.

Day 4: Driving into Lancaster, PA and sharing the road with the Amish! :) 

Annnd, our extended family has arrived at our hotel after driving down a few days after us! :)

Day 5: Visiting the Amish Village - a set-up, but quite authentic and true to the culture of the Amish in Lancaster. 

Checking out a buggy with my cousin (the only other girl amongst us cousins - we gotta stick together!) and our grandpa.

And with my brother. :)

My buddy the pig.

Feeding a goat! :D

Visiting the Amish schoolhouse - my mom's the teacher! ;)

My little cousins - forever running around. :) #lovethem

The whole gang!

1, 2, 3, JUMP!

When Canadians go to Pennsylvania, we shop. And pretend to ride the rides at the outlet malls. ;) 

Stumbled upon an exhibit about the roots of Anabaptists and Mennonites - so cool to be able to learn about our church's roots! :)

Cousins - all 6 of us. :)

Day 6: What sparked this trip in the first place: My grandma wanted us to go see a show at Sight & Sound Theatre - a theatre bringing the Bible to life. We saw their production of Noah - very well done & super great! :)


Shopping x2! Boys and grandparents waiting while the girls are shopping.

Day 7: Sending our family off - back home after a great time together while we stay on a couple more days. (One of these kids is NOT happy about gearing up for 9.5 hours in a car - can you spot him? Haha.) 

Visiting the Habitat for Humanity ReStore on our way out of Lancaster - we love Habitat. :)

After some driving - we stop in Corning, NY and visit the Corning Museum of Glass. 

Day 8: Spending the morning in downtown Corning. (That rhymed! :P)

Found a cute little Farmer's Market for brunch!


Almost home! Spending the afternoon at Niagara Falls - that place never gets old. :)
Super super thankful for this time spent with my family! :)

Monday, August 12, 2013

3 Things I Learned From Temporarily Losing My Vision

I am the queen of the accidental blog break. Ha.

This time though, I had a little bit of an excuse...

Two weeks and one day ago, while eating breakfast and getting ready to leave for church, the top half of my vision in my right eye suddenly went grey.

I blinked. I blinked again, hoping it was just something in my eye. I shut my eyes and opened them again, but I could still only see my brother across the kitchen table from his nose down.

So I said, "Guys, I'm being so serious right now, I can't see out of the top half of my right eye."

My family didn't take me seriously at first. I feel like that says something about my sarcasm. ;)

But from the worried look on my face they decided to take me seriously.

Off to the ER we went. My vision slowly restored, and two hours later I could see perfectly fine.

Since, I've been diagnosed with what's called an ocular migraine. I had dull headaches for about a week/week and a half after.

At the ER!

Dr. Mom (with help from Dr. Google) helped me identify migraine triggers, which explains my blog break - too much screen time is a migraine trigger. So, I did almost zero screen time for a few days, and I'm still trying to keep it less than what it was for the first half of summer.

So, here's the deal. In those moments - especially the first few - in which I had no idea what was going on, I was scared to bits. Honest truth.

With no idea what's going on, guesses like this run through your head - detached retina, blood clot, brain tumour, nerve damage, I'm going blind, and other scary things involving surgery/lots of medical treatment/crazy life change... 

And this is what I was reminded of: In those crazy I-don't-know-what's-going-on moments, we have a choice: fear or faith. 

And here's me admitting that I choose fear far too often. My best moments that crazy morning were the moments I chose faith.

My best moments all week? [When doctors say a migraine diagnosis isn't really definite because you just kind-of rule out other really unlikely things and the headaches aren't going away and maybe an MRI?] My best moments were when I chose faith. 

And I realize that that choice isn't just for the crazy moments. That fear-or-faith choice is for each day waking up - fear or faith?

You don't need the possibility of a serious health problem to have that choice.

Wake up and there it is: Fear that today goes terrible or faith that He has a plan?

Not just some theoretical, "someday" plan. A plan for today. A purpose for this exact day that He has made. 

And that brings me to something else. What if his plan was for me to become blind?

No really - serious question. What if he called me to serve Him without my sight?

Would I say yes?

I said it to my mom later in the week - "I hope if God called me to be blind, I'd be ok with that."

Not just ok, though. I hope my lips would praise Him still, and my life would continue to be His.

Because everything we have is only because of Him.

And how quickly He could take it all away - really.

But our loving God - he doesn't.

He gives. Continually, He gives us only His best.

Because - the biggest thing I was reminded of through all this:

All is grace. All.

-

ps Thank you thank you thank you to everyone who kept me in their prayers through all this. So thankful for you all.❤
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